Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Lovely old friends

About 2 days ago, my friend sent me some pictures. Those were taken when they had a 'halal bihalal'. And I realized, it has been 10 years since I know them: my friends from uni. Though I am not really close with all of them (specially since now I live in the different part of the world, of course I am behind from a lot of things about them), but still....it was 10 years ago since the first time I met them. How time is flying by...
I saw the pictures, and I saw life. I remember, how young we were when the first time we met. Now, we are not some teenagers who just started our college life anymore....Now, we are women. And mostly my friends have their own family now, and some little children....I always imagine, how nice having friends, grown together with them, and see our kids grow up. And it makes me sad that my dream is not a reality....
Maybe, I have to admit that all this time, I've been running away...Maybe, now it is time to keep back on the right track.

I miss you all, my sweet lovely friends.....It has been 10 years, and how I wish I will be able to be in the picture next time you all have 'halal bihalal'.....



Kukenang pertama kali kukenal wajah2 itu
Kutersenyum bahagia kini ku masih menjumpai wajah2 itu

sudah 10 tahun berlalu
tahun 1994 kami bertemu
kami kini ada di penghujung tahun 2004

Ada bahagia, ada marah, ada rindu, ada kecewa
melebur, menghangus tertanam dalam canda tawa

Teman, sahabat, kawan...
Tiada yang dapat kuucapkan selain syukur
10 tahun bukan waktu yang singkat

Untuk menjalin silaturahmi yang terjaga
dari batin dan ketulusan hati

Jakarta, 27 Nov 2004
By: "Ade" Anggrek

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Fluffy

This is Fluffy. He is a Guinea Pig, Michael's new pet.






Saturday, November 27, 2004

Holiday and celebration

It's Saturday already...seems it was just last Wednesday when I started my long weekend. I've been wandering around since Thursday, and just got back home from my best-friend's house. Sometimes I feel better if I have nothing to do on the long weekend, cause when I got busy like this, the time seems to be passing by, all of sudden the holiday is over. Yeah, though I don't celebrate Thanksgiving Day (and don't blame me for that, as I mentioned before that I am not originally from here, so Thanksgiving is not a celebration for me). But also, as I noticed, people in US tend to celebrate everything, without even knowing what the meaning of it. I still remember when I was still working in Chico's, people came for shopping on the Easter Day. Surprised, surprised....though it's a celebration for Christian, I bet those people have no idea why they are giving gift on Easter Day. It's probably just because it's a holiday, a day off, a time to be with family. So, it's not something bad actually, I just surprised how sometimes people get lost for celebration...

Anyway, it is still nice having a holiday. As I used to have holiday every Lebaran. It's nice having a time off for resting. Hmm...not really actually, cause I used my time visited my sister and my best friend. But I had great times. And I just gave myself a digital camera as a Christmas present (it's early, but the chance was only for yesterday) ^_^


Yet, hopefully people out there who celebrate Thanksgiving Day, they had a good Turkey Day. Gobble Gobble!

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Pictures of Jakarta

I was browsing and found some great pictures of my hometown (from the good angle of course ^_^) so here they are

Sunday, November 21, 2004

My new friends

Yesterday after the choir at St Anne, we went for dinner. Just me, Lala, Jane and (Kuya) Jun. And I am glad that I can have other friends from outside my "national" community. I mean, living here in US, where people all over the world came and live, I should broaden my environment too, right? I even had my pen friends from another country when I was only 15 years old. Too bad I lost contact with them now...But learning a different culture is always great.

Anyway, these people that I know just recently are very kind and nice. If they said they feel great I am within the choir now, as the contrary, I feel blessed that I found them and got my courage to join with them, and I can sing again....

Thank you, for having them in my life now.

Thursday, November 18, 2004

The Majesty and Glory of Your Name

Today, as usual I got an email from Lala, informed me about the song line-up for this coming Sunday Mass at STM. One of the song will be The Majesty. Though I bet it won't be the same song that I know, still it has been reminding me about the song I used to sing when I was still with VA. As a result, I was browsing, tried to get more information about the song. And,I also dig inside my memory....and dig a hole inside my heart. So here I am now....ended up with listening the "real" song of the Majesty by Tom Fettke, and I was crying and crying....the memory comes again....all the sweet memories of me when I still joined with VA. Now I am feeling so sad....how much I miss that moment....

I know I shouldn't keep listening the song...but the song itself is a beautiful one....and the memory too. Except that it is painful for me now cause it was all in the past, and I can't have it anymore....I made my choice, I have to hold on to what I have now and keep move on....but the sadness is too deep....

I am still crying now....the song is going louder and louder...I was shaking remembering all those times...all my sweet friends....all the lovely memories I shared with them....

If only I can be at the two places for the same time.....if only I am be able to do the miracle...........



When I gaze into the night skies and see the work of Your fingers,
the moon and stars suspended in space
Oh, what is man that You are mindful of him
You have given man a crown of glory and honor
and have made him a little lower than the angels
You have put him in charge of all creation
the beast of the field, the birds of the air, the fish of the sea
Oh, what is man that You are mindful of him
Oh, what is man that You are mindful of him

O Lord our God, the majesty and glory of Your name
transcends the earth and fills the heaven
O Lord our God, little children praise You perfectly
And so would we, and so would we
Alleluia.

"The Majesty and Glory of Your Name, based on Psalm 8 (Tom Fettke)"

Homesick.....

I was browsing on the internet today, to all my fav pages, and all of sudden, I was struck with some pages about my home home land....all of sudden I miss my high school, my old friends (though I already lost a lot of them) from high school, my Uni, my friends from Uni...I even miss "bakso pentol" from my junior high school! It's kinda a meatball actually, with a spicy sauce (and trust me you don't want to know what's the "real" ingredients.....)

*sigh* dunno when can I go back to visit my home, I hate to think about how long I have to take for the flight (FYI, 18 hours is the minimum, but let say the least will be 20 hours). Mostly I can always manage my "homesick", so hopefully I will now. I would love to go back home, but I can't really figure out when will be the time....

Hope that my brother's big plan for next year is going to be smooth so after all I have good excuse to go home.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

Online fighting

About few days ago, I had a fight with my friend...It was funny 'though cause the fight was an online chatting. Yap, chatting is the only way to connect me with my old friends back there at my home town. Of course, fighting is actually not the part of it. But I can't deny that I was disappointed with my friend. Although, maybe...something is really going on and I know nothing (like he wrote to me), still, it's kinda opened me something that I didn't know...that I didn't know he is capable for having that thought. Well...maybe he has the right, he has his own reason. It just shocked me how actually people always have different kind of side...a lot of things you don't know even when you thought you know everything...Life is always full of surprised, and people always surprised you even more....Yes, people change. Even I do. Some changes are good, some are not....

Anyway, I really hope everything is fine. And even though I have a different perception of him now, I hope I won't lose my friend. Hope that I can balance my thought as a person who knows nothing....


Monday, November 15, 2004

A minute about me

Who? Me? I am just an ordinary girl, with strong believe in Him. I am not a super-religious, but I believe of His power and His blessing. I love my Lord with all my heart, and I know how much He loves me too.

I am a typical of cancer, very moody. I can be very nice and very grumpy, the angel for someone, and maybe the devil for the other one. Sometimes I can be very emotional and lose my temper easily, but slightly getting better now as I become more mature. Oops, did I say I am mature? Hmm..let's see, I am more mature now than few years ago, specially after the storm that torn my life apart. But I am survived, and started collecting my pieces and gather them into one whole again. I survived after started my new life. After left everything that I had, my family, my home, my friends, my old love, my happiness, and my sadness. I came from nothing in the past, and believe inside my heart I will be something in my future. As a spirit of dragon will always live inside of me, life for me is a battle, yet, I hold on it. I believe a good reward is there waiting for me, somewhere, somehow, someday....

Deep inside me, I am just a little girl. I still like everything cute (including Sanrio stuff ^_^ and Donald Duck---he is so funny!), everything with strawberry flavor (doesn't change since I was 5 years old). I have a sweet tooth. Candies, chocolates, cookies, ice-cream, cotton-candy, you name it. All sugar, all sweets (thanks God I have a good DNA for metabolism)

I am a romantic, and I would like to be treated that way. Even though, it is not a strict requirement for being my boyfriend. I ain't a poetic-person. I cherish poems and sweet words, but they aren't for me. They will tickle me rather than flatter me. Yet, I love flowers, specially roses. And I am definitely a dog person who misses my dogs so much and hope they're all okay now in heaven....

I like being around with my friends, 'though sometimes I enjoy my loneliness. I prefer having just few best-friends but I know I can rely on them forever in my life (and I really have them!) rather than having a bunch of people surround me just for fun. I like to be able doing my stuff without anybody's curiosity. I'd like to have a wide environment and not being stuck with specific one. But this is not for my love-life. I am a very loyal person (see...I am a cancer, once I found what I like, I will hold it tight, even though sometimes it isn't right...) very devoted to whom I love, forgiving (after years and takes times) but never forget. I survived from severe broken-hearted, the last one was indeed hurt me upside down. But I still have my heart, and I am still looking for my love. The right and the last one.

So, who am I?
I am just an ordinary girl....
A little girl who is trying to grown-up, and live her journey of life.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Here again

It has been a busy week...kinda crazy at work...and so much load. I am not complaning, which actually those changes are good for me. Learn and learn...and get to the next level of experience.

Lately I've been thinking, there's must a better thing for me out there, even here in San Francisco. I am not ready to jump out yet....
And I am still looking something better, whether here, or in another place. Meanwhile, I just have to cut my plan to go back to school, well, only a while. Hopefully, I can work it out next year, and for sure, I won't kill my dream...Let it sleeps for a while, but not forever....as I believe a dragon always lives inside of me (I was born under the sign of Dragon, and I believe of its spirit).

So! I am still looking...and looking....until I find it, then I will know which move should I make. Keep the spirit!

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