From Torino, to Vancouver

Farewell Torino, farewell Sasha (you're still my fav skater afterall), farewell Yevgeny (the same name with someone, you got an additional point from me).
Hope to see you all again in Vancouver!!

Ain’t it funny?

Ain’t it funny when you fall in love?
sometimes, love is just another way of entrapment
you have no other way to go…
yet, love will make you surrender
no matter how hard you try…
it will bring you only to nowhere

though you've guarded your heart
love will unleash the chain
it needs freedom
to fly afar….

Ain't it funny?
how love will make you feel so daze...
even when you are the smartest person in the world,
love will defeat you.

Ain’t it funny?
when you fall in love….
how your mind will bring you
closer to the endless pain

Ain’t it funny?
when love capture you off-guard...
when love take you out from your shelter...
even from the stongest shell that you've made

Ain’t if funny?
that after all, you are still questioning
What is love?

Ocean Beach - (2)

Ouwww! Many of you like Ocean Beach...:)

Here's a bit of information about the beach, it's not the most popular beach in SF actually -unless you are a surfer, cause this one actually famous with its big waves, perfect for surfing. And even the last time I went there and it was raining and pouring, I still saw couples of surfers. And actually, the rain brings you the big waves (pssttt...someone told me about this ^_^). Oh, and I live nearby from the beach, so I go there sometimes....

This one also famous for dog-walking. Well, maybe in the future, I'll take my future dogs (yap! will be more than 1!) there.

Anyway, check this out:

Ocean Beach and Location

Ocean Beach

Is amazing how I can fall in love so deeply with the ocean, even when it's raining and storming, it seems so beautiful in my eyes.....It has no color, only in the shade of grays, but everytime I look at the beautiful waves, I feel...mystify..... about my past, my present, my future, bring all together. An I feel so small, nonetheless, I am only a small human in this enormous world....

Russian Pair Wins Figure Skating Gold

Two-time world champions Tatiana Totmianina and Maxim Marinin of Russia won the gold medal in figure skating pairs Monday night with a nearly flawless performance in the free skate portion of the event.

If any of you got a chance to see their performance, you'll agree that they deserve the gold medal. I always love watching figure ice skating competition, and maybe that's the only thing I watch on the CNN :), and when I saw them yesterday, OMG! I think it was the first time I ever saw a pair competition that really graceful; yet; with amazing technique.

The team from China was good too actually (but I still like the Russian team much better), and too bad she fell (and it was pretty nasty, right on her chest, ouch! I can only imagine the brush she got after). Oh well, I guess they have to be satisfied with the 2nd and 3rd place.

Valentine

Gosh! It’s so freaking cold tonight, and it’s not even summer yet! What a perfect day after the sun had shined yesterday. Hmm…and I just had this flash in my mind: my Valentine’s last year. It was a simple and humble dinner; and somehow I miss him. Though my heart had never fallen for him, but after having someone for almost 2 years in your life? Not that easy to kick his shadow away from you. But I’ll move on, even with love, I’d moved on.
And I can’t take his heart for granted….

Anyway, hope you all have a nice Valentine’s Day. Well, if you don’t, don’t worry bout that, when you love someone, everyday could be your Valentine’s Day. Beside, Valentine has really becoming commercial lured these days. But hey, I still smiled when I saw a guy this afternoon; carried a heart balloon at his right hand, and a bouquet at his other hand….hope his girlfriend/wife will be happy enough with that.

Brrrr…..listening to the angry wind outside….and I feel really cold!

Don't cry out loud

Baby cried the day the circus came to town
'cause she didn't want parades just passin' by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about 'er 'cause, you see
Baby is an awful lot like me

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

Baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
The different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothin' left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken 'cause you see
She had the finest teacher-that was me-I told 'er

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost made it

Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

First week

What a week!

It seems after nesting for almost 2 weeks without doing anything, and all of sudden I am chasing the time between work and class. Got to get myself used with it, I mean, it's not the first time I am doing it, but it's rather difficult to adjust on the first days.

Anyway, my job: cool!! I got some kudos already from my new boss ^_^. Love it! The people are nice, and watching the girls just like watching the fashion show...Downtown is always nice, though lots of temptation to go shopping, or just go the next building to use my 20% discount. But I got a free pouch already - one of the gal from the buying div gave it to me, it's an extra and a gift for my first week, she said - and I got myself some nice and super duper cheap clothes from the sample sale. Nice! Make sure I keep my eyes for the next schedule cause I know my sister already left me a message, she wants some also!

The bump, too bad I got my email with my first name, hmm...I hope it won't be any complicated thing later. Maybe I should use my middle name instead on my paperworks, but then, it probably will be another problem. Oh well, one day I really need to switch my name!!

That's all now. I'll have my training schedule till the next 2 weeks, that will be fun.

What can't kill you, will make you stronger

I dunno who actually first said this, and I won't argue because it is true. The last few months were very tough, but as always, I tried to bounce myself (other than being numb) and planned more than 1 plan. And, prepare for the worst. Started from the condition at my old-job that became more and more absurd. The final, when my ex-boss offered me another agreement, but on the other side, also kicked my inner-side. He mentioned something bloody awful about my ability because I am an immigrant (and I won't reveal any of his actual words, so no need to ask). I lost all my words at that time, but as usual, I just smiled at him and to everybody. Knowing that he is that kind of person who is capable of saying that, later on, I realized that it’s not a big deal anymore. Oh yeah, it really stabbed me. I even almost lose my confident. But I still have my pride - and I proved it when I walked away from that sickening place. Still I thought, gosh! Is that true? Am I really that bad? And so on and so on…so many questions inside my head, till I had to calm myself down and said I shouldn’t be too harsh to myself. Beside, I’ve been here only for 3 years; I still have a long road to go. When finally I’ve became sober, I knew it’s just because something wrong with him. Well, I aint gonna be too pride about myself either, so in the end, I took some of his words and I’ll use it as my whip to make me better. And believme, one day I’ll show up in front of his face and I’ll say, dude, you got it all wrong.

Anyway, it seems that one of the dark clouds had gone; I know where I should go. I finally able to place myself in a fine place with dignity. I will have one more thing to be less worried about - just have to make sure I will keep up a good work and do better and better.

The other dark cloud, still concerns me a lot. And yes, it’s all about LOVE. 1 word, 4 letters, that’s just so simple. Hm…not exactly. Many times I feel that I need to stop in hoping. Fallin in love could be so wonderful, when it happened at the right time, right person. But how about if nothing went right? When you fall in love, it's only another way that leads you into the tears and aching heart. Love is not a guarantee for forever happiness. I know that. Love has taught me a lot, indeed. I wouldn't be the same person as I am if I never fell in love. But the other side, loving someone so hard, meanings that you have to prepare for losing your beloved one. Yes, you want the best for your love, but how if nothing goes as my scenario: when the princess met the prince and be happy forever after; and not because the prince found another princess and they live happily ever after, leaving you torn apart between hoping your own happiness, and his.

Randomly I found on the in internet, that the best part of loving is not wishing that the person loves you as much as you do, but in feeling that you love the person farther that you thought you could. I can't be more agree than that. Still, you will feel your heart bleeding inside. And I won't be hypocrite and say that I am happy enough.

I've promised that I won't ever cry again; unless someone died. And so far I haven't broken my promise. I guess when you had such bad memories, it's a good teacher for your life. Nobody is willing to fall twice.

So I don't know where we would go. I'll try not to put too much hope, cause when I create the expectation, I will create a chance for disappointment. And I don't even think I will be able to compromise specially with a lot of stuff going on in my life.

But I won't cry no matter what will happen -only for the death. And what can't kill me, will only makes me stronger.

ROKR

My new cellphone, so cool, and it rocks!!!




Now I can listen into my fav songs on my way to work. Changed my direction to work in downtown, and need to take the muni (I don't think anyone is willing to drive there and spend $12 a day just to pay the parking).

I just got it this morning so I am still researching its features, but so far so good: the sound is "good" (you need to say it like Bruce did - Bruce Almighty ^_^), and love the camera. Dunno bout the battery yet, hopefully will be tough enough.

Today is a nice day...

BTS

OK, I'm back to school now. My classes have started this week, and....I am taking 4 classes. I had 6 classes actually, but as I will also start my new job next week, so I got to drop 3 classes that are held during the day, and...as I didn't pass my GET (somehow I knew it though, so it’s fine for me), I got to take a writing class. So all will be 4 now, and will be a LOT of writing assignments (and of course, not very surprising, reading!). No art projects this semester, I think, and hope that I won't be mistaken. I couldn't imagine dealing with the art project and the writing assignment at the same time.

So it seems that I will get more than enough exercise to master my writing skill. I know my writing ability for easy stuff is ok, but to do my thesis, hell no. So it won't be too bad actually, cause I will get a chance to really learn and improve my writing. I just hope I will still have enough brain to do so. On the other side, as my job is a brand new one, I don't think I will deal with stress yet. It's probably will be in the phase of adaptation, and of course, learning. Hope I will do well. This is really a big step for me for getting into my dream job, cause I have landed myself into my dream company. Just have to make sure I’ll keep up the good work. Not gonna be easy still, working full time and go to school every night (well, 4 nights in a week to be exact). But hey, I’ve done this in the last couple semesters, so I know I can handle it (I think….). The worst chances are:
-that I will sacrifice my weekends (again),
-and be a nerd (ouch!).

Hmm….maybe for this time, I am happy that I am single. So I don’t have to compromise any other thing at the same time. Or, I won’t be obligated to show my face to someone when I just want to date with my textbooks. Oouh, yeah, I do have a feeling, true, but I think it will lead me only to nowhere, so maybe I should just drop it and let it go....

Anyway….it will be Monday soon, and I am very excited. Yeah, for once, I won’t say I hate Monday. And the last 2 weeks have been great for me, because I was doing totally nothing. Consider this as a refreshment and vacation, cause I dunno where will be the next time I can get 2 weeks off….well, maybe next year, but that will for my trip going back home (unless I decide to go somewhere else, as I did when I went to China instead of going back home).

Err...we’ll see….