I feel....

something is missing from me....and I know I miss S so much!!! :((
Miss someone else too, but, *sigh* I don't even know if I am allowed to have that such of feeling....

I am still holding off everything now....still living in a midst of clouds until I can figure out the next step I should do. In a meanwhile, I can only pray that I won't get hurt again, no matter what will happen....