Rejection

I finally found out today: I didn’t get the job. So, I applied for this position at the same company about couple of weeks ago, and I've been prayed all days hoping that I would get it, and I didn’t. And, I really don’t know how I feel now, cause I've built all my hopes and my exception until this afternoon, and the more expectation that you have, the bigger risk of disappointment that you will get. But, somehow I knew it was going to be like this, I don’t have a perfect life, and if I've gotten the job, that would make my life perfect.
And my good friend at work was the one who got it, and though I am happy for her, I cant deny that I am very jealous, for she has the opportunity to move forward while I am still stuck....

Perhaps, I was over-confident. Gosh! I don’t know....I really blew it up....don't want to think about anything now...All I want to do is just shut the world around me, and let me recover underneath my shell.